Saturday, 13 February 2010

Silence is deafening.

I can't think of anything to write. Or... do, at all. It's weird. A few times, I've been doing nothing, literally, nothing, and I've had to shake myself to snap back into reality. It's freaky, definitely. Very spaced out.

It's quiet, everywhere. I don't see people much, or talk to anyone much anymore. I avoid talking much to people in person these days, as full blown conversations just end with me smiling and nodding, and wondering what the hell they've been talking about the whole time. It's near impossible to lip read people who mumble too. College reflects this. People talk, I usually stay quiet and try to listen. A lot of the time me and friends just write notes to each other b/c it's easier that way.

I don't really know what I'm getting at here. I just know that I hate being in the house on my own all the time, no one really to talk to. The only time I can honestly say I'm happy on my own is when I'm out the house taking pictures. Unfortunately the weather likes to have different ideas to this. So at the moment I can't go to the one place where I've been wanting to go for a while. It's in Newcastle. And the place is generally deserted. But it'll definitely result in some good photos I hope. It's kind of the only time when I know who I am right now.

Ah. Sorry for the whole 'woe is me' blog. Tomorrow will be brighter.


Tori said...

Nothing wrong with a little woe every once in a while xx

Lucie said...

I dont know if you follow Eva - but I thought this might give you something to talk about.

Lots of love,
(i cant believe how many CFers we've lost already this year, ugh)


Anonymous said...


I feel for you. Social isolation is heartbreaking. Communication difficulties make it hard to get the face to face social interaction you crave and CF makes it hard in many other ways. I can't and won't suggest what you could do. Thats up to you. I think you realise you must do something to get out of the rut but it may mean accepting some harsh realities and coming to terms with things.


lauren_jersey said...

You know where i am if you want to talk Megs.
Feeling much the same at the moment... obviously I dont have being deaf to deal with aswell as everything else so not exactly the same. But i feel completely isolated :/
Keep your chin up xx

Something Happened Somewhere Turning said...

Wishing you better days.

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