Showing posts from June, 2010

I survived.

I think. All appendages accounted for, so I consider that a win. It was pretty awesome. I got completely knackered walking from the meet up/sign up point to the top of the bridge, but hell, it was SO worth it. The only part where I was completely and utterly scared was standing on the edge of the bridge b/c it just seemed so easy to slip. Yeah I was already harnessed up and shiz, but it was still scary!

 [Can you blame me?! It was shit high up there]

 [Weeeeeeeeee. Major fun]


[Most likely me being a complete tool and genuinely asking what are the chances that I'd hit a seagull. I'm not a seagull fanatic or anything. I just think that beak would hurt if you hit it at 30mph]
Major hugs to everyone who donated :) I overtook my target too, so yay! It was definitely awesome and me and my cousin said we'd be doing it next year (She didn't this year). Next year it's a zipslide off the Baltic. A big art building-y place not far from the tyne bridge.

It's a *tad…

It's a jungle out there.

The world is loud. Really loud.

I got my new HAs yesterday. And I've spent the time since just... listening to stuff. No matter which HAs I get, you can't fix the nerve damage so it's still all fuzzy and not exactly clear. But I can hear stuff I haven't heard for years without trying or having to be right next to the sound. I can hear the bloody car radio now. And the washing machine in the other room. I can hear people talking as they walk behind me. And my typing is loud too.

It's funny cos these sounds annoy me like they would if I'd been able to hear them for years. But I haven't for the past 7/8 years. So as much as it's annoying to hear the washing machine rattling away in the kitchen when I'm in the front room, I'm not complaining. There's sounds I love that I haven't heard for ages too and I really want to. I want a massive rain storm, even though everyone would undoubtedly complain about that, b/c I want to sit by the window and…

Can you hear me now?

That'd be a no...

I'm starting to realise how much I rely on my, albeit very little and shitty quality, hearing that I actually have left. You might think it probably makes very little difference, loosing a HA for a week or so and just going about with the one ear. Apparently it's a huge difference. At least I get my new ones tomorrow. This whole one 'good' ear shit is starting to get old. And annoying. Although I've had a tiny taste of what it's like not having to faff about with one of the damn HAs for one side - I can listen to my ipod without having to take out a HA first. Mucho handy.

I thought it wouldn't affect me whilst in the pub on Saturday. Turns out it actually did. Whilst mostly I just hear background noise rather than my friends, I can actually hear them a bit, and I didn't even notice that properly until Saturday. The night was good though.

It's 5 days till I scream my way down the zip slide and I'm just over half my target, s…

Zip slide


Jumping off the Tyne bridge in Newcastle via a (I'm hoping not flimsy) piece of wire and a harness that had better fucking not snap on me.

I hate heights. If I look over the edge of a barrier and I'm really high up, I panic, and get that jolt in my stomach imagining what it'd be like to fall. That's not to say I keep my feet on the ground all the time. I love rock climbing and climbing up trees like a nutter. But there's just the idea of being suspended over the river, travelling 30mph. And the minor fact that I can injure myself doing sweet FA.

It's last minute, I know. Most people sign up for these at least a month or two in advance. I'm doing this in less than two weeks. I'm pretty sure I'll do it on the 26th June (I have the option of 26th or 27th), although I think it's all about the timing - 26th is Saturday, and I'll be at college. I could always disapear for 30 minutes, and when I walk back in…

Little moments of win.

Ok well, when this first happened, it pissed me off a lot. But it had a good outcome. So..

Saturday morning, in the car to college, my right HA decides to rebel and starts whistling, a lot. It's sort of like a high pitched squeal, and everyone can hear it. Well, everyone, bar me. My hearings that crappy I can't hear the damn thing squealing when it's directly in my ear. Which I'll admit is a bit stupid cos I can hear with earphones at a perfectly normal volume (and yeah, this both freaks me out but I find it epically cool at the same time, even if every things still muffled and unclear). It's a frequency thing apparently.

I have to rely on other people's reactions (unless I ask them to directly tell me) when wearing my HAs to see if they notice my HAs randomly whistling. Which meant on the entire journey to college I was probably really bugging my Mum with randomly switching on my HA to see if it was still being a bastard. I gave up, and just left it in the car…

'Cause you had a bad day...'

Everything about today pissed me off.

It basically started straight away when I realised I had a whole list of stuff to do, and basically today to do it in. I probably didn't even get through it all, which I'll imagine will be fun when I realise uber last minute the stuff I need to do. It didn't help with a bunch of ridiculous injuries, the worst being standing up fast and cracking my head off an open cupboard door, so hard that it sent me crashing back to the floor and basically sitting there like a complete tit for a while till I managed to focus again. A close second was trapping my finger in the door when I closed it. Which still really hurts.

I've had a stupid headache all day which I'll bet will be something to do with the murderous tendencies of the cupboard, but it definitely made everything just that more difficult to focus on. I've got college tomorrow which will undoubtedly be a bore fest and I'll bet that I'll forget something. I always do. …

And on today's menu...

A bitch of a left lung which inexplicably hurts with every breath.


No idea why or what caused it. It goes away, it comes back, I grumble, and it fucks off again, so that's a fairly fun circle to participate in. IVs got started today. Which was... interesting. I'm in clinic too much, it's starting to severely piss me off. You know you're there too often when you walk up to the Secretaries desk and they smile at you, say 'Hi Megan' and ask you how you are, rather than ask you what your name is/which dr you're seeing or whatever. I don't mind, but honestly, it's a bit ridiculous when you can start joining in on the banter with the nurses cause you know them so well.

Once again I made my valiant attempt at looking through my notes. They were sitting in the note-holding thing outside my door, so I grabbed them, sat on the floor, and flicked through. I'd completely forgotten (for the most part) about my admissions I kept having when I was 11/12…