Showing posts from March, 2010


So apparently blogger is being an unhelpful bitch by not letting people comment.

Which is sad, really, as nothing is more depressing than a blog with no comments, right?

Prove me wrong here, people!

Listen up.

I've just realised there's a fair few of us who have hearing loss from meds.

We should make a club.

It's not like we'd ever understand a word each other was saying if you took away the blogs or msn or facebook. But there's something about talking to someone who has had their hearing fucked by meds - there's a world of difference between 'getting it' and experiencing it yourself.

Plus, it's entirely different when there's people who can relate to remembering what it was like. Talking on the phone, having effortless conversations and watching tv without subtitles. I remember that stuff. I may have been 10 when my hearing decided to argue with Tobra and fuck off, but I can remember having stupid phone calls with my best friend back then, and even hearing a whispered conversation between my gran and my Dad about a birthday present (I was probably 8 or 9), when I was halfway up the stairs and had my back to them. I heard every word and turned round a…

For Eva

I can't think of any real words. I'm gutted you're gone Eva, I was so convinced you'd get your 2nd call, your third chance at life.

I hope you're breathing easy now, and able to dance around to your hearts content, pain free and with endless energy.

Love love love

Being bored.

The lazy day that turned into the to-do list that wouldn't die:

In between all this, unbelievably enough, I actually got the majority of stuff done. I still have some college work to do. Mainly research and shizzle like that. Being a 'I'll do it in the last minute' girl doesn't add well with tutors who give you work in the last minute, also announcing that you have to hand in three other projects that must be finished or else you're not completing the course and progressing onto part 3 of the overall course (The Diploma, thank-you-very-much).

Also, you wouldn't believe how distracting it is in this kitchen. I came in here to avoid putting on the tv in the living room and thus never actually getting work done. And I'm sitting here half paying attention to Skins on 4oD. And the fact that I'm next to all my IV things is also distracting. So far I've had a ridiculous amount of fun with a syringe (next up, water fights) and also drawing smiley faces …

What I've lost recently...

I loose everything.

It's getting beyond a joke. I've literally considered putting some sort of lo jack tracker on everything I own. Most specifically my keys, b/c they're the worst for it. I think its a skill (other people, not so much) that I can have my keys in my hands, put them somewhere, and two minutes later the buggers have disappeared.

Stuff I've lost (and occasionally found, and probably lost again, with my luck) this month:
keys (I'm not gonna even count how many times I've lost them though)my panda hat. I miss it.lens cover for my camera.ONE, yes, just the one of my converses. I found it and then promptly lost the other one.I'm fairly convinced I've lost my DSA form. I need to find that.A couple of leaflets from the job centre. They said I should go on jobseekers allowance (despite the fact I said I don't have the energy to actually work) so eff that...A jacket. Not sure how I loose things that aren't even small, but y'know. It's…

Soon to be swimming like a little fish.

My 6 minute walk test went good. I managed to avoid embedding myself into the walls or tripping over my own feet (although I came close on that one, many times). My Sats behaved and only dropped to about 91/92, and I walked about 380 metres. Not entirely sure how well that means I did, but the physio did say I need to work on my fitness level. Which I whole heartedly agreed with when, later on after an interview at college, I couldn't walk back up the hill to the car, so my Dad drove the car down to where I'd stopped.

By that point I didn't care though. I really, really hate hills.

My physio said I should carry on going on random walks taking pictures (which I love doing and do often as long as I don't freeze, or be a complete idiot and forget a jacket) and I should also start going back swimming. Which I'll admit I've avoided doing for a while now. I swear every time I want to actually get back into it, I'm on IVs. Which sucks b/c obviously I can't swi…

So, where have I been?

Erm. Here. All the time.

My life is uber boring in all honesty. I did the getting-IVs-thing on Thurs. And plenty of drip stand skating was to be had. We did try and leave to get some food (seriously, 1pm appointment times do not sit well with the needing food thing) but the nurse said I had to stay in the room. I can't remember whether it was cause colo was going through the drip, or basically, just b/c I had the drip stand, but either way, I was stuck in the room. More or less. I did drip stand skate up and down the corridors. Unfortunately no epic videos were to be had this time. Well, I lie - there's one on my phone but it's being a total douchebag and won't transfer. My addiction to skating on the stand really pisses off the nurse. And also makes my sats drop, which I found out when the lung function tech took my sats and they were lower than usual.

Luckily the colo side effects aren't too bad this time. Last time I had IVs, they lasted basically the entire tw…

And reappearing.

They say when you're young, and when everything goes wrong, it feels like the end of the world. They're right. But at the same time, you know it's only just getting started.

First things first:

Rachy got her call! Really, really pleased for her! She got the call at about 4am on 10th March, and didn't get the green light that all was a go until about 5pm that day. Hell of a wait. Can't really think of anyone who deserved this more, but it doesn't mean that there aren't others still waiting, so making sure as many people as possible are signed up is still really important. Last I heard she's doing well in the ICU. Yay!

I quit my job.

I had to. I hated every time Friday came around. Plus, after a long Friday, it made it slightly harder to get to College on Saturday. A job is a job, but college is the important thing b/c without it, I'm doing nothing with my life. It wasn't the idea of quittin…

Mini disappearing act.

Alrighty. I think I'm gonna take a break from blog land for a bit. I'm not sure how long, maybe a week, or two. Or at least until I can think of anything half decent to write. Really not sure how long that will be. But I will be back.

Before I forget, I've just realised that I'll be a week into IVs when I have to do my 6 minute walking test later in the month (my physio is all interested in what my O2 sats will be doing). Seeing as I always get colo for one of my IVs, something tells me this 6 minute walk will become a 6 minute 'attempt to avoid crashing into the walls'. I'm considering taking my helmet.

I'm not lying. I actually have one.

Anyway, I'll be back. Not sure when, but I will be.