Oh the pain.

I'm in mega mega pain.

Its in the same place I mentioned last post, down my right lung at the back and across the side. E-v-e-r-y-t-i-m-e I breathe. Its sharp and tight and feels like my lungs are screaming in protest of me taking another breath. I went to the hospital for my appointment today, as we moved it forward from next Tuesday. My IVs were started and the Doc peered at me as I explained that this majorly hurts and for some effing reason neither paracetamol nor ibuprofen works. And its been like this non stop (with no exaggeration) since last Tuesday.

I don't even care that the IVs were put into two intermates. Ceftazadime and Colostin. Each in a (normal sized) bubble of its own which means that IVs will take the minimum of an hour to complete. But if it gets me better, I don't fucking care. I really don't, I just want to be able to breathe normally again without having to gasp in pain every 2 seconds (which hurts more). My sats are hopping through 86 to 95 and that's just not normal for me. My PFTs dropped (although I don't know how much exactly till I get the letter) and took me forever to complete. But the technician lady was incredibly kind. I also have to get a chest x-ray at my next appointment (8th may) since I haven't had one since January 2008.

My sats ping-ponging between high 80's and low 90's is severely pissing me off as I'm freaked out and quite clearly not doing OK. Add this to the fact that I have deadlines for coursework (luckily two out of three coursework units are finished) this week and an art exam next week, which will be over 3 days. And I don't even have my design ideas of what I'm gonna make. Plus a nice big display on the art wall that each art 6th former gets to make. And I'm determined to make one this year as I was too ill last year to make one.

At least next year, if things start to go down the pot at the same time as this and last year, I'll only be doing an art course on Saturdays, leaving me the whole week to be all manic about physio and the like. Although it would be nice to have a job too. I just have to learn NOT TO RUN MYSELF DOWN. Will someone please yell that at me? Cuz I need it, and all I can think is that I just don't have the time to be ill. If this was happening in two weeks time, rather than now, it'd be fine, seeing as my coursework and art will be over and I'll just be dossing around at school, having a laugh, whilst everyone else tears out their eyes revising for exams. Thankfully, I've got no actual exams this June. I obviously won't rub it in everyone's faces when they're stressed to the point of screaming, but I will smile to myself knowing that this time, I get a break.