I hate the finality of that title, but that's what I did. In truth, I prefer the saying 'It's not goodbye, but simply 'I'll see you soon'', cause no one really knows what actually happens. They're partying like rockstars up there, and you just live your life, in wait for your VIP ticket.
I lit a candle on Thursday for Lauren, as it was her funeral, and obviously I couldn't go. Turns out the candle was scented AND changed colours. Damn cool. I got upset after I'd blown out the candle as it just felt so final, and almost a bit more real. This will take time, and I understand that. I read this Winnie the Pooh quote last night that definitely sums everything up perfectly:
"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."
I have so much love for everyone who has been there for me and helped me through this. All the messages, chats, texts and hugs mean so much. And a lot more love for Gem who knew and loved Lauren just as much and is going through the exact same thing, but has been there every second